It has been 3 1/2 months and yet the things that happened in September 11th still haunt me. I am a career firefighter in Georgia, many many miles away from NY. I was working the day of the attacks and only ran med calls, wrecks and "routine" calls. I did not enter a tower and save thousands of lives.
Yet, I still have trouble sleeping at night. I close my eyes and think about the 343 brothers I lost. I sit around the station and look at the faces of the guys I work with and wonder what it would be like to lose any of them.
I am not even trying to compare what I am feeling to those guys in NY, or try to justify why I am feeling it. I myself am having a hard time figuring it out. I cant even imagine what the guys must feel like that lost hundreds of brothers.
I guess I am wanting to know how many others feel this?
I am not having a pitty party...just hoping I am not a "headcase"
Yet, I still have trouble sleeping at night. I close my eyes and think about the 343 brothers I lost. I sit around the station and look at the faces of the guys I work with and wonder what it would be like to lose any of them.
I am not even trying to compare what I am feeling to those guys in NY, or try to justify why I am feeling it. I myself am having a hard time figuring it out. I cant even imagine what the guys must feel like that lost hundreds of brothers.
I guess I am wanting to know how many others feel this?
I am not having a pitty party...just hoping I am not a "headcase"
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